After covid relaxations, I continued with my 10 std. After vigorous fight, I held school 3rd rank in the board results. Scored above mom's expectations. I became a gigglemug after this, showing my teeth whenever I was lauded ๐๐. But I was certain that I would get a setback soon. My 11th std had a different story. I didn't want to waste my time, telling about that. The last year of my schooling went smooth till October. Amidst my board's pressure, I was preparing for IIT JEE. The plan that I had in the beginning of my preparation changed. Time didn't favor me. I was running behind it, actually trying to catch it. But failed๐๐....
My first experience of JEE was too horrible. My thought and my reality didn't accept each other. Since I had been drowned in the lose, I was moved little from my board preparation. Focused only in JEE. And that helped me to reduce my board preparation time. While writing this experience, something struck me inside - actually I put the effort for board exam not for JEE. I was sincerely preparing for my second chance. Worked like a bull. But the output was the same. Secured same percentile. I cried a lot. I wasn't able to overcome this setback. Soon after this came my board results.
"๐๐ญ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฉ๐๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ฃ๐จ ๐๐ก๐ฌ๐๐ฎ๐จ ๐๐ช๐ง๐ฉ". I anticipated and so I lost. I hadn't had this idea in 10th std. But I did in 12th. My last hope was broken into pieces. Though I ranked school 1st, the satisfaction didn't sprout. Dissatisfied with these setbacks, I passed my holidays. My friends( books) helped me to get out of it, but not completely. I read a lot in this period. My parents always supported me and they didn't become a barrier for me.
It is not my reminiscence,
It is the next step to fulfill the interstice. ๐คซ๐คซ
To be continued......
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